Moving Day

#nowbumping - Thank Me Later #onrepeat d(-_-)b

pardon me... this is really some shxt i dont expect for yall to get.
but im gonna do what i want, because idgaf... to be honest.

my thoughts are a little scattered right now...

MOVING OUT...

the last couple of weeks have been hectic... but enlightening. i've shed alot* of tears, for reasons that were understandable and some unnecessary. i wanna thank everybody that answered the phone when i called them 3oclock in the morning, you didnt have to- and youre very much appreciated. Quavo (over at Thank Me Forever), (our very own) Chris, Miles (over at Truth Thinks ), and Solomon. And big thanks to Keanyn for inspiring to write this post, for some reason over at Mi-Amor. thank you, all.

*time to pack up some of these burdens, get them the fxck on through.

MOVING ALONG...

I am so happy to announce my uncle is OUT of the hospital, and he is doing much much much better, Thank God. Cause I swear I been praying... I love you, BlooJames (as Emon over at Deuce, Love, Lyf affectionately calls him. ) And to Chris' aunt, i know you were very much loved... have fun in heaven... just know we're gonna miss you alot*, since youre gone ♥


*you must love until the day you die, because until youve loved you havent really lived.

MOVING ON...

i finally learned... i finally understand... i finally know... what ive always known, but never chose to believe. you cant force someone to love you, no matter how hard you try. chris, said "idk how you got so caught up" ? honestly, me either. you dont feel it... it just happens. so quickly... next thing you know the word love is popping up in your head. i wanted us so bad, i forgot about what i needed. wtf do i need ? i gotta re-figure that out, alone. i guess, you weren't the one, but what we have/had is that serious (well to me it was) but it isnt love... it wasnt love, the stuff that went down, doesnt go down when its love. i was all in and, it was TOO one-sided. but no regrets and no hard feelings... and even though we let it go, its better that you know, i still... got it for ya. maybe in the future......? probably not. but, just dont get caught up in nothing crazy... cause no girl, ever wants to hear no stories bout her baby ♥ dont worry bout me, though. im good. heartbreak ? bruh... i eat that shxt. haha.


*no more guessing what im thinking, no more music inspired by you, no more endless talks. no more waiting by the phone, no more arguments, no more tears, no more putting my foot out- guilt tripping. no more you...

and im gone...
yours*, until you no longer want me to be,
bloo